It has been too long my friends…way too long.
There is no exuse.
I am camel poo.
Or not.
Time has been spent in the sun, with Alexius and Wallstone + friends.
Life is darned good this time of year.
Yet I find my self reflecting on how I deal with changes.
Big ones.
Am I humble and accepting or do I fight it?
I can, without a shaddow of a doubt, say that I always try to project the image of humble selfacceptance but I secretly try to fight it when no one else can see me.
Late at night in bed when those dark thoughts impose on my oh so fluffy, loving mantras.
And it gets to me. Those ominous thoughts linger til the morning. Colouring my day and..yes my life.
It is time.
Its time to actually BE humble and accepting and stop pretending that I am. As it turns out, that is harder than yours truly could ever imagine.
But hey, this could be the beginning of something new, something outstanding.
Something awesome (as Emma P would say).
So here I go…not again…but for the first time: on the path of being nice to myself.
I will do some seriouse buttaching, mindblowingly awesome ninja kickass of those dark cloudy thoughts in the dark of night.
No retreat, no surrender! On my command, UNLEASH HELL!
And don’t you worry, im quite sure ill still be me, still cheeky ,
stubborn, straight to the point and with a smile on my face.
Just nicer to myself.
Tons of love to all of you out there..i miss you.
And you know it.
Until later…
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